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TESTIMONY music by Stephen Schwartz

In writing TESTIMONY, Stephen Schwartz collaborated with Dan Savage, creator of the groundbreaking “It Gets Better Project." Schwartz has set the heartfelt words from the "It Gets Better" videos to music, weaving them into a breathtaking, emotional new masterpiece that speaks to anyone who has ever felt out of place. The song urges LGBT youth to hang on, telling them they're not alone, and showing them that life gets better.

Composed for the San Francisco Gay Men's Chorus
Dr. Timothy Seelig, Artistic Director
World Premiere, March 20, 2012

About this recording

TESTIMONY was recorded and engineered by Leslie Ann Jones, the legendary multi Grammy award-winning Director of Music Recording at Skywalker Sound.


Based on texts from the “It Gets Better Project”

I don’t want to be like this.
I don’t want to be who I am.
Every day that I don’t change I blame myself.
I am not trying hard enough.

I don’t want to be how I am.
When they find out, no one will love me,
I’ll lose my family and all of my friends.
I’m trapped like a fish with a hook in its mouth.

I am impersonating the person I show as me.
I am an imposter. I am a spy behind enemy lines.
I pack my feelings so deep inside me, they turn to concrete.

Every night I ask God to end my life.
I am an abomination.
God, take this away or take me away.

Today, I’m going to hang myself. I’m trapped.
Today, I’m going to slit my wrists. I’m stuck.
Today, I’m going to jump off my building.

Take me away. Take me away. Take me away.

Hang in. Hang on. Wait just a little longer.

I know it now, I know it now.
If I had made myself not exist,
there is so much I would have missed.

I would have missed so many travels and adventures,
more wonders than I knew could be.

So many friends with jokes and secrets not to mention,
the joy of living in authenticity.

Sometimes I cry, life can still be hard,
but there’s no part of me still crying “Hide me.”

I would have missed the chance to sing out like this
with people I love beside me.

I have been brave.
I grew, and so did those around me.
And now look what a life I’ve earned.

It gets more than better.
It gets amazing and astounding.

If I could reach my past, I’d tell him what I’ve learned.
I was more loved than I dared to know.
There were open arms I could not see.

And when I die and when it’s my time to go,
I want to come back as me.

I want to come back as me.